Long time....

Wow... I haven't written anything in over a month. So much has happened. I don't really know where to begin.

I went home a couple weeks ago. I got some much needed time away and some much needed quality time with my best friends in the world. I don't know what I would do with out my family. I didn't really do a lot while I was home except be with my family as much as I could. Then I came back to Michigan to get ready for our summer youth trip. I was so overwhelmed when i was getting ready for it because there were so many little details that I had to work out and I hate small details. You know when your praying all the time in you head but you not always saying it out loud? well I was doing that all week. I long for my kids to really see something new with God. There is such a bug apirit of apathy and it breaks my heart. I wanted this trip to ignite a fire...a revelutionary fire. So that even when we got back I wanted them to like Moses after coming down from the mountain. Everyone wanted to see Moses because his face had changed. Everyone could tell by just looking at him that he had been with God. That's what I was constantly thinking and praying about. We left on Wednesday for Cleveland. We did a lot of stuff. We went to Cedar Point and then Thursday we went to the Cleveland zoo. Which it was funny seeing what animals different people wanted to see because that animal was just like them. Then Thursday thru Saturday we went to the youth conferenct at house of praise. from the moment we pulled up that were so kind and wanted to serve us. With some of the first few people I met they all said to me..."We are so excited your here we have been praying for you for weeks!" I loved hearing that I wasn't the only person praying.
I thought the conference was incredible. I couldn't get into it as much as I wanted too because of my youth but I still loved it. The music was incredible! I miss being in worship. I miss being eble to really express myself in worship. I was so inspired. Do you know how long it's been since I was inspired? I want to start wanting things again. i want to start dreaming again. I long to start being and becoming what I'm suppose to be. I fully don't know what my kids got from this weekend but I do know that my heart is so much bigger that where I'm at and I'm totally going to out grow this fish bowl.

Well it's been an extremely long weekend and i need to get some rest before I lead worship in the morning. So as I sleep I'll listen to the song that is forever playing in my heart.